I do not know what I would do without this wonderful family ... Although many steps have been painful and have been very difficult for us .. but this is not the subject today. if not a sadness that I have reasonable today by many who could describe my feelings about my husband. It is not sadness, hurt, so the problem was him. IT has been more than 10 years without seeing his son, now he 12 years, my husband Eric was reunited with his son's mother for more than four 4years (if im corect) they have were very young when the child was born "teenage parents" . and had many problems that any couple can have to go through a separatetion. "They say: .. What if I take the house or anything that can be carried out including children! Oh my God !!!!!?!? Why do children have to pay for the mistakes of their ingnorantes parents ? and yet they blame eachother. saying it's your fault my child was left without a father or mother and forgotten like dogs in the street. but that's not the case. as for good in some parents do not know what to do! Some parents want the best for our children. Unfortunately though things did not go as they desired things to happen in the way that their relationship needed to be for the sake of the child. He well knew he wasnt on the right track .he had so many problems and didt know what was going to happend to him ,as he thought their was so many things to do and painful to do as well he decided to give his son for adoption to the new husband of the kids mother . he did painfully signing the adoption papers but she promised to send pictures, letters, and upates of him and did not DID! and till date she said derectly to me she would be sending some picture and that i would be sending her some reply of my baby grl for him to have. but as it is and has been lies and exuses .SHe did not send anything and i havent eighter for what ?if she wont be honest and respective to our shares! and well known she had always said that my husband had forgotten about his son and that he doest care well let me say that is not TRUE!!!! and you always said that he has no rights to his son and how can you say that?is well known that he was not good that now it is. we had just asked another oppurtunity to see his child.
A while ago she contact me on myspace she had said she thought i was erick brother when their was a display picture of me and my doughter lol well i imediately run to erick and said ,Guess who had just add me on myspace?! he reply WHO? The mother of your son!!! Michelle?yah her! He didt want me do deny her so i agree we started to have some few conversation about her and the kid ....And erick would also use my pg to contact her about his son .she had problably had thought it was me all this time ,when really erick cared and wish to fix things up .so as time past by we tryed to come up with so many things but like its always been said"erick its not good enough to do fix things up! how or what do they want ?how to fix things up when they ALWAYS shut their door at our face!!!!how to get in ?
So today we run into a problem,Where she had wrote so many untruely comments...ohhh i am so bad why not say the correct stuff like it is .. she had said i had added her when she had thought that it was erick tryin to communicate his son and including seeing some picture of him and she did not deny ...when really she was the one to ADD ME !!!!!
Things started to get diffulct from this point..till some few day she agreed erick coming up with his mom and my baby girl but i wasnt invited because "the kid" didt want me too
well we are just hopeing that someday things work out we will let this problem on hands of god and he will lead us to where we need too.He well knows that erick loves his kids after after everything!!!!!!

SHE IS WHO COMPLETES MY WHOLE WIDE WORLD..... JANELL MONSERRATT





life is sum of experience that we encounter as go through life.dAY TO DAY TO STRUGGLES AND TRIUMPHS ARE EXPERIENCED BY ALL OF THE WORLD'S CRATURES. AS HUMAN BEINGS,WHEN THE ECOUNTER A CHALLENGE, WE HAVE FREEDOM TO CHOOSE HOW TO REACT.EVERY DECISION THAT WE MAKE LEADS US DOWN ANOTHER ROAD. WE WILL NEVER COME TO EXACTLY THE SAME CROSSROADS.EVERY DECISION THAT WE MAKE HAS SINGNIFINCACE.THE TINIEST CHOICE THATG IS MADE REVEBERARATES THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE...

Who Em I?

WHO AM I ? HOW AM I? AND HOW I FELL TODAY IS WHAT I ASKED MY SELF TODAY ......AND I KNOW WHO AM I ....
I AM ,A DAUGHTER A SISTER,A GRANHTER,A NIECE,A COUSIN,A FRIEND,A YOUNG GIRL,AND A GROWN WOMEN ,IAM CONFIDENT &SCARED,TERRIFIED,AND EXITED,IAM LOVING AND CARING ,& THOUGHTFUL ,HOPEFUL ,IAM SHY AND FRIENDLY AND CAREFUL OR CARELESS .IAM HARDWORKING BUT WHAT I KNOW FOR SURE IS THAT I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH AND I PROMISE I WILL NEVER LET YOU GUYS GO I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT I EVEN PRAY GOD NOT TO LET US APART FROM GOOD OR BAD , DONT LET GO EVER .I HAD OFFER YOU EVERYTHING I GOT, FOR YOU AND MY BABY JANELL,IM SCARED BUT STRONG ,IM UGLY BUT BEUTIFUL INSIDE, SHORT BUT MY LOVE FOR YOU GUYS IS SO TALL THAT NO ONE COULD REACH IT. BUT IF YOU CHEAT ,CHEAT DEATH,IF YOU LIE,LIE ABOUT YOUR AGE,IF YOU STEAL,STEAL SOMEONES TRUST,AND IF YOU DRINK,HAVE ONE WITH ME! I KNOW THAT SOMETIME IM SELFISH,IMPOTIENT AND A LIL INSECURE .I MAKE MISTAKES TOO AND IM OUT OF CONTROL AND IM WORKING ON THAT IS JUST ALOT OF STUFF THAT I EVEN THINK YOU DONT DESERVE ME AT MY BEST.BUT YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT COMES ON MY MIND SOMETIME ....THAT IM THE GIRL YOUR EX WILL HATE AND THE GIRL YOUR MOTHER WILL LOVE AND ABSULLUTLY IM THE WOMEN YOULL WANT TO BE WITH FOREVER LOL IS IT TRUE QUE NO ? BABE CUANDO TE DIGO QUE TE AMO I DONT SAY IT OUT OF HABIT ,OR TO MAKE YOU THINK I DO .IS TO LET YOU KNOW AND TO REMIND YOU THAT YOURE THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME AND SO IS MY DOUGTHER . WHO COULD OF IMAGINE THAT WE COUD OF ENDED TOGETHER.BUT WE DID IT ,THATS WHAT I CALLED TRUE AND STRONG LOVE !!!!! I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ,SO MANY WONDERS. AND LOTS OF FEARS BUT IM CROSSING THEM OUT OF MY LIST AND BRINGING MORE PEACE AND LOVE TO THIS FAMILY . I DONT KNOW WHY I WROTE THIS BUT I WROTE IT AND I HOPE YOU LIKE THIS AND DONT THNIK THAT IM STUPID ....SO HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE ME? YOUR JUST AN AMAZING GUY WHO HAD MORE EXPIRENCE THAN ME AND THATS WHAT MAKES YOU BE WHO YOU ARE AND THE LOVE YOU GOT FOR US.KNOWS WHATS GOOD OR BAD ...WHEN TO BE STRONG OR WEAK ,WHEN TO CRY OR LOUGH .RUN OR HIDE ..AND THATS WHY I NEED TO LEARN MORE FROM YOU MY TRUE AND STRONG LOVELY MAN .. I LOVE YOU BABE ....
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Today is a day to celebrate once a year and the day to remeber how to appreciated what you have in life,Do know dat I love you? I problably already told you over and over , But im going to keep saying it over and over again and again .There is no lies in these word,not one bit ur smile keeps me alive.one more reason to keep fightin for our LOVE and I would give u my soul if I needed to four comfort even if it leaves me Dark and COLD.& im really proud of you and your hard work of you you become I am so fortunate to have a husband like u I love u soo much you have done a big difference on your life to show how true your love is not only for me( also for our baby girl ) and who had shown me that your love Only belongs to me till the end of my days..I love you for so many reason's I love you for this and more than I can show I hope its not by my actions because I know that I still have to work hard on that But I still love you with all my truthly love...Today we celebrate 2yrs of Marriage our ANNIVERSARY cant be more special than enjoying it together a true love.....

Im so lucky to be His WIFE!!!! ღن٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥ﺎ

(This is a story of my life)
It all started 2years ago that I had been so happy and found the one of my love.
It started with a sadness he says, a "true love."
My life changed completely, After a very painful failure but still will not let me fall to the floor and put my feet walking down a track. I neglect I decided to continue a normal life after the failure to take action in my life.I was still young and very well knew that these were the cover on a teenage life.I Completed my studies and Im very grateful to all whom had stood by my side Through good times and bad. And shortly after that, I felt very sad and forgotten but one night I Recivied a call from a friend's number, but very strange because it was not fate, his cousin had stolen my number to talk with me jajaj I answered the call and asking who he was?I Had received the surprise that he knew me but I didt had clue who he was so on top of this it began by a totally phone talks and texting with a totally stranger who had known me.His conversacions where comfortable to have so I kept him as a friend.
till one day we decided to meet in person was a feeling daring and crazy but without fear. we lived in different states it was inposible to meet soon 'till one day he came to a wedding of his brother and had made our dreams reality to meet in person,It was a big thrill to meet him. I was going through something that had never felt it was a love at first sight something that many do not believe!I started heading toward the very happily together.This is how our circle of love started.(YES I KNOW ALL this sounds crazy )This is how He started as a stranger,then he became a friend then that same friend became a bestfriend and now that bestfriend is the L.O.V.E of my life. His name is ERIC my babe, who would of thought that I would spend the rest of my life with him. Hes sweet, outgoing, nice, and isnt afraid of enything REALY ENYTHING!!. He knows when im having a bad day or when im stressed out. He will always find a way to cheer me up or get me in a good mood thats why I love him SOOO MUCH.Well to top it all off hes mine and im his and thats how it will be for the rest of our life. ღن٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥ﺎ bby♥

I love you Babe,and I know that you love me two. Because of this I desire to be your wife. For the rest of our lifes,together we pray.cry,laugh and share alot more memories,We will lead our marrieage till death.I promise to be your faithful women as longest I live .And I will love you as who you are !A marriage of two is for love that is true is always something new and hard to do.But we will work this out when it's due.A marrieage is of trust and They are only very few who have a clue of when love accrues. A marriage of two is about love making It is not about money raking.Im so lucky to be your lovely wife...

This is a picture of my Husband....
My Husband is someone, I spend most of my life with and with him for years I go.My life has become strong, MY life has become independent,pure ,romatic.My life had a new begining And the most valuable gift-My husband has given me Is, My Beutifull and best Daughter And i Thank God,for the wonderful family he has given me .....He walked in to my life, But just like that we Both got in love,A love that I have created in our souls,And had become a real strong love,And Still you will Always be My only love, A Love that will always be locked together in our lifes,Away in my heart and my mind, I will always have a memory of you and now of my precious baby in my heart, And I will always carry that picture of you in my mind, Still you will be a memory, I love you SO MUCH!!!!

It was the middle of the Easter holidays when I wrote this. A period which is traditionally associated with families getting together, both to commemorate loss and also to celebrate new life.To try and explain how my appreciation of the value of family has developed and evolved over the passing years I’ve split this piece into the three separate years from the begining i got married to right through the present day.

Particularly during my “teenage” life over the last 20 years or so, my personal family unit has been through some extraordinary changes. Through it all, my commitment to and belief in the importance of family in my life has only become stronger.

Lets start now from the begining.My name is Alex aka lexy .I live in a small town where it could be like hell sometime everyone knows eachother around.I ment my husband (Erik)here in town by one of my friends.Back in the time No one agreed me seeing him.My life was full of problems with my Family.It was really stresfull and not know what to do!And the fact it was because he was much mature than me if we can say..."older".But that didn't matter to me.Their isnt any limits in love!!! notthing matter to me rather than just married him and be with him forever....


So after a few months he proposed to me on Valetines>>yahyyy!! it was the most beutiful and special moments of my life....And of course this was the moment for our life together and family problems go away.(so I thought)

WE got married on may,29.07. Had a beutifful give from god ,MY daughter,janell-she was born on oct, 26,08 . So after a year of married and my new born baby my life was completely different.I saw progress on my life fanilly my family was getting happy with my new life of marriage they had notice how good of a husband i had.He is a wonderfull and hardworker husband .He has gone thru alot on his life.And even though he had expierence a hard life it had help him in so meaning things in life to change and have a better life with us.While we are having our birthdays,holidays ect.He will always be thinking of someone special for us.But as im writeing this i could say that it really doest matter to me of what had happend on his past life, I love him so much and I would do anything to have my family HAPPY and this is why My Family is this....


To be apart of a family like mine is so divine where love is shown hurtis shared our love for each other is never impaired

we talk
we laugh
we cry

but we are a family and we do it all together for as a family we do it all as one
you hurt one
you hurt all
and as a family unit we will all stand tall
for we are family
a family full of strength
a family full of love
a family no one can touch
that,s why I love my family so much.